The anxiety is so difficult to deal with. It just consumes you. I’ve had social anxiety for so long I can’t even remember not being like this. The constant worrying, overthinking, feeling alone at the same time as never wanting to talk to anyone again. Then there’s that feeling that no matter how hard you cannot explain it properly. Never wanting to leave my bed or talk to people again. The worst part is I can’t think of a single person in the world that can talk to about it and writing this seems really lame but ohwell.